Saturday, October 18, 2008



I haven't been blogging much this week. The onset of fall means the gardening company I work for only has about 6 more weeks (if we're lucky) to make the rest of our money for the year. As a manager I'm feeling under-the-gun to motivate my tired gardeners and generate work from strapped clients. We're doing lots of bulb installs right now. This week my crew planted over 10,000 bulbs on various properties. I'm so excited to see what they look like next spring, as long as the critters don't eat them all first!
Anyway, that's my explanation. I hope to catch up on blogs this weekend. :-)

Meanwhile, today marks 31 days of sobriety for S. We've never been in this place before and it's certainly a strange, new world. Based on what I've read on blogs and heard in meetings and talked about with our counselor, I know that this is a period of monumental adjustment. And indeed it does feel that way. Whenever I start to feel confused or distressed or frustrated, I try to think about God. I've started reading Your Sacred Self by Wayne Dyer and am really enjoying it. Unfortunately, I keep falling asleep in bed while trying to read it with one eye open. But it's a start. S and I have started talking about spirituality too. Today, while driving to Salem, we talked about the second step and what it means and how we understand the Higher Power. I'm just grateful to be able to have the conversation with him, regardless of where it goes. Intellectually, I know that this is a long journey for us. I also know that I can't really understand what this journey will be like until I've lived it. I'm looking forward to growing closer to God to help support me throughout.

Is this what it feels like to have faith?


Anyway. I hope everyone is well out there in Bloggerland.

8 comments:

Addicted Rantings said...

This post had me smiling. I am glad to hear things are going well. AR

AlkySeltzer said...

Molls, chief-a-roni say "Uhhh! Human woman speak with horse sense. Good"!

Molls wrote: "Is this what it feels like to have faith?"

Yes. You have a lot of "it", girl!

Couldn't you sell Chrismas trees?

Shadow said...

faith and hope! it's so encouraging to hear how well your 'travels' are going...

Lou said...

When you write of a journey, of a willingness to accept new ideas, of a renewal of your relationship, of opening your mind, of a peace.. that is faith.
You should be very proud of tackling the problem head on. Most co-dependents choose to pretend that nothing is wrong for way too long.

PRAYER GIRL said...

You're forgiven for not blogging much. We're still here. I'll be away for a week in the near future and will be unable to blog. So, hope all of you will wait for me too.

The beginning of sobriety is the beginning of a whole new life. It is scary and it does require help - help from other AA (Alanon for the co-alcoholic) members and from God. It can only be handled one-day-at-a-time and sometimes only one-hour-at-a-time. But we are living proof that it can be done.

Kathy Lynne said...

I've had a busy week too..but glad to catch up with you. How lucky you are that you are sharing the journey with S and that he's 31 day sober. Good for him and good for you too. I know if my husband went to Alanon I would be really grateful.

Cat said...

I am grateful S made it to 31 days - Congrats to him for that - and congrats to you for stickin with it. Cat

Syd said...

Molls, faith is giving our lives and selves to our HP. It sounds like you are doing just that.