So tired tonight. Long, hard day at work today, in some pretty good heat. My back is really bothering me too. Haven't been sleeping well. Feel drained and very sad and so lonely. What am I going to do? I want so badly for things to be so good that I think maybe I imagine the good times to be even better than they are. Or maybe I'm just able to appreciate the good times because the bad times are so bad.
Or maybe I'm just sick to death of wondering and guessing and imagining what's going and I just want to hear it from him. I need him to talk to me. If there's any way to make it work, he's going to have to talk to me. I don't care if he doesn't want to communicate, he has no choice if he wants me in his life. I just hope that "if" isn't too big.
Ugh. Too tired and blue to blog tonight.
Depressed and complaining -- that will have readers flocking. Away.
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