Yes, a new day did bring new energy, as well as much talking, sharing and listening. Tonight I go to my Sunday AlAnon which usually bolsters me for a few more days. We're working it out. He is trying and we do want to make this strange new/old relationship of ours work.
Lately, I've stopped praying because I almost feel scared of it. I find that praying requires such openness and trueness of self. This is difficult! I'm so used to projecting onto others what I want them to think of me, that I almost believe it myself. Praying requires more honesty than that, and it ain't easy!
But I think I will keep trying. It felt awfully good at the same time.
That's all for now.
It's Been a Decade!
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