Sunday, November 16, 2008

A New Day

Yes, a new day did bring new energy, as well as much talking, sharing and listening. Tonight I go to my Sunday AlAnon which usually bolsters me for a few more days. We're working it out. He is trying and we do want to make this strange new/old relationship of ours work.
Lately, I've stopped praying because I almost feel scared of it. I find that praying requires such openness and trueness of self. This is difficult! I'm so used to projecting onto others what I want them to think of me, that I almost believe it myself. Praying requires more honesty than that, and it ain't easy!
But I think I will keep trying. It felt awfully good at the same time.

That's all for now.
Molls

8 comments:

Addicted Rantings said...

Molls, Glad to hear thing are looking up for you today. Praying is good no matter how you do it. ~AR

AlkySeltzer said...

MOLLS, SO good to see you back--too many days off, IMO. Missed ya, that's certain.

Loads of adjustments are necessary when one gets sober, and I'm sure you're finding out about all that in Alanon.

Juat remember those MOST important four words in a marraige: "YOU MAY BE RIGHT!"

Sometimes I've heard it is helpful to PRAY TOGETHER. Ever hear of that?
Might give it consideration.

Shadow said...

i sometimes get that same 'block' when it comes to praying. but it passes.

Lou said...

Relationships are always changing & always require work and compromise...whether drinking is involved or not. That never goes away girl!

Keep praying. Anything you say is kept private!

Cat said...

A New Day and a New Dawn - I thought of this when I read your post. : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5F2Q8oYMUBw

Syd said...

I think that I can tell anything to God and he'll listen. It's a good feeling.

PRAYER GIRL said...

Dear Molls,
The two of you are in the midst of the biggest changes you can experience. Thank God both of you have a program.

Change is scary. Change is uncomfortable. Change is something we often resist. Change takes time.

Keep praying, keep going to meetings, keep just doing the next right thing, let time take time, and most of all - allow enough time for the miracle to happen.

God bless both of you and your relationship.

Gabriella Moonlight said...

Honesty is difficult, but the rewards are amazing, no more fear (much lessened), less guilt, remorse and a whole new journey that evolves, and that's the key; progress -not perfection, it sounds like you are exactly where you need to be!!!

Just enjoy the journey and breath!
Hugs, G